Once you start feeling time in a less linear way things get stranger, stranger and stranger. I feel that life has gotten more mysterious than ever, and it has gotten more precious and more lovely. It is more beautifully strange than any movie could depict.
Discovery – when Einstein discovered E=MC2 lets say, – he didn’t create it as much as he “uncovered” it. There was this principle hanging out there waiting to be discovered. Do we ever discover anything new, or do we simply uncover yet another eternal possibility – in relationships, experience and life? Isn’t it all out there and we need only “tune it in”?
Time – what is time? To the mere mortal it’s the memory of former “now moments” and the projection of “now moments” based on our ideas of former moments plus an “itty bitty right now” which slips and quickly becomes a former “now moment”. Hmm….I don’t buy it.
Outside our mind, what the heck is time? In a sense it stands still. But on the other hand, it pulsates and lives, and changes. It’s both. Our linear idea is off, eschew. It is a delicious Kaleidescope, every moment as precious as the next…always changing but from within like a pulse. What if it were one big fat right now? (hint…it is)
The only reason for all the now moments is all the little forgetfulness moments breaking up the all pervading now.
When you really love deeply, you forget about time. When you dance and a rapt in the joy of music you are not seeing a linear score…..it is a big fat joyous now moment. This is beyond the mind, don’t try to understand it…just let your heart love an animal, nature or (gulp) a person, or God…and then ask where time went and you’ll see – your mind went to a higher place where time does not exist: the realm of love.
Now when I travel, meet new people hear new music and experience fresh exciting things – it is the uncovering of what always is, what always has been….just like E=MC2….these people places and experiences have been waiting, like a TV station, to be turned on, tuned in and activated before my eyes, based on my willingness and readiness to see.
I am always finding that which I have known, people I have always known, music I have known.
It is all a “coming home” and like Merlin, I am heading into the past and looking forward to it. I am remembering the future. With every new bit of information I get I just say “of course!” When I receive a new melody to a song from the angels whispering in my ear I say “of course”. And when I meet a new friend whom I love and cherish I smile and say “of course! ….well, what took you so long?” 🙂
So “forever” is not a stairway to heaven or a line fading forward. It is and expanded, delicious “right now”. This is a but a taste of timeless eternity. Wow. Yep, right here right now.
Chuck Decker says
You couldn’t have said it any better! Don’t forget that “space” is also connected to the illusion of time. We may expand into the Universe only to find ourselves emerging from an atom, and we may collide protons in the LHC only to discover entire Universes! BTW,—LOVE your playing!!! The spiritual connection to the music itself, in particular your respect and reverence for THE SONG itself,—just shines through like a beacon and allows you to breathe life into the song. It’s become rarer all the time to see a talented musician with chops use them solely in service of the music itself without the obligatory endulgments into the land of ego. Be well………..Chuck.
wow, i’m not only a big fan of your music, but also of your writing. this blog’s so inspirational. whenever i finish reading a post i feel elated and motivated. it must be awesome, like you describe, being able to travel for music purposes and metting new people and artists, just the whole music scenario and environment make me get goosebumps. i really hope i’ll be able to do that someday. you’re great Adam, please keep posting, i’ll always read 😀
keep up the great work.